Oi.
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: The used.

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I dont get it...Me and james have been flirting with eachother again..and i miss him and love him so much. i wish he would just ask me back out. Justine told him i was going out with John and he got all sad. it isnt true, Just like the rumor of me being with Will. ugh. i just want James back. i wanna be happy again. he is my first love..*sighs*this is why i didnt want to fall in love..cause i wouldnt know how to react and then everything just goes. BLAH. I miss my james. we had so many memories.
Well. ugh..i guess im gunna go. Im on the phone with russ.

hah hes trying to get me NOT to cut myself again. lmao...yeah like thats gunna happen. i need james..and i WONT stop hurting myself until i get him back.
Time is running out. If he doesnt ask me back out before december..there will be NO more Ariel.

Later kids.

I love you james :'(

hmph
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Avenged sevenfold

Poem.

Mehh :'(
This was for my only love James.
But now he hates me :'(

I always thought
The one I wanted
Would be exactly opposite
Then the one I found.
But now
Out of nowhere
Here he comes.
And slowly
My heart was being pulled
Toward this wonderful shadow
He called my smiles
And made me laugh.
He listened to me speak
And seemed to care.
He was always teasing
And making fun
Of all my weird styles and habits.
Making sure
I was never ever
Really hurt.
I never really got mad.
So as my heart waits
In this dark limbo
For him to keep it,
To protect and care for it.
I sit here and I pray
He doesn't take it
If will really break it.
I don't know if I would be able
To collect all the pieces.
I want to be his
And for him to be mine.
My eyes
Will always be searching
For his presence to arrive.
My body
Always yearning
To be in his arms.
Trouble may arise
A battle with friends
But to be his
And feel safe
Within his arms
Just may
Be worth
Their drama and spite.
I love my Shadow.
He makes me happy.
His presence
Overwhelms my mind.